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Königstein, April 19, 1793
I thank you, dear Gotter, for the advice to turn to the Coadjutor
– that was why I wanted to ask you. It is the worst thing that can
happen to a woman to find herself in such a serious imprisonment –
before she deserves it, she must have more to reproach herself with
than imprudence of thought, and Mr. von Dalberg, who knows people,
will feel that this imprudence is not to blame on her, but on the
influence of her friends – he cannot want her to be ruined because
of it, as I would inevitably be by a long imprisonment. I am not a
criminal, neither directly nor indirectly – but I have had
acquaintances who are, and who now make me seem suspicious. I
thought I had separated myself from them forever, and there has
never been such a connection between them and me that I could now
consider myself a martyr.
I have been told of a way out that
could soon free me, namely if they would accept bail for me. As a
lawyer, what do you think of that? It is terrible to have to depend
on the duration of the siege of Mainz – and yet it is said that no
formal investigation will take place any sooner. With the lack of
news from abroad, won’t the French be frantic enough to want to
defend themselves for a long time?
Dear Louise, if only I could
sit in the little room you so kindly prepared for me! I feel your
heartfelt sympathy – will I be lucky enough to thank you in person?
Will your friendship not wane? You see, I give no pleasure to those
who love me, and will perhaps still cause them much worry. God bless
you my dear – rejoice in your freedom, and that you can take your
children for a walk yourself. I almost feel it is impermissible to
let Auguste share my fate; give my warmest regards to
Wilhelmine.
Your husband should testify to Mr. von Dalberg how
long I have been in conversation with him about my departure and,
while he was in Frankfurt, asked him to get me a passport from the
Duke of Brunswick.
Source of original German text: Caroline. Briefe aus der Frühromantik, Vol. 1, ed. Erich Schmidt, Leipzig: Insel-Verlag, 1913, pp. 282-283. Available online: https://tudigit.ulb.tu-darmstadt.de/show/GK-9099-S322-1